i just feel like saying this somewhere

okay so i said something mean & innappropriate yesterday to my friend and she was like that is inappropriate but then i told my other friend and she thought it was funny and i was like they thought it was crude and WHAT IF THE FIRST FRIEND TOLD ME OH NO AND THINKS I AM A BITCH
WHY DO I CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK

these big town dreams that I've been chasing/will never come true if I wind up staying.

I'm sick of feeling worthless and I'm sick of pretending I don't.
I hate that society teaches you that your self-worth is connected to which guys "like" you.
I am sick of this town, and I am sick of my school. I'm tired of being around sixteen year-old kids who drink. I'm tired of people being nice to when I look nice and bad to me when I look bad.

I need to get out of this town.

Why doesn't anyone NICE ever like me?

personality test

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.

You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.

You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

Impulsive

You trust your your instincts. What others may see as rash behavior is, for you, simply going with your gut. Individuals with a high score on the "impulsive" trait tend to try new, sometimes outrageous, things.

You are not timid. For you, spending time microscopically examining the pros and cons of every decision means never getting anything accomplished.

Innovative

You come up with a lot of ideas; if one doesn't work out, there's always another waiting in the wings. You often have interesting solutions to difficult problems. You're practically a one-person brainstorming session.

You are less interested changing the world than in dealing with things as they are. Unlike those who spend all their time trying to solve problems, you prefer to zero in on things that work and stick with them.

Creative

You are good at solving problems, coming up with original ideas, and seeing connections between things, connections that most other people miss. People with a high score on the "creative" trait often are employed in such fields as finance and scientific research, and enjoy avant garde and classical music as well as literary fiction and scholarly non-fiction.

You do not shun abstractions and concepts in favor of the concrete and tangible.

Intellectual

You are thoughtful, rational, and comfortable in the world of ideas. People find you interesting to talk to. You're the living embodiment of the saying "You learn something new every day." In general, those with a high score on the "intellectual" trait are employed in such fields as teaching and research, and are enthusiastic about reading, foreign films, and classical music.

You do not avoid abstract conversation, experimenting with new ideas, or studying new things. It bores you to stick to the straight and narrow of what you already know.

Astute

You are a quick study. You generally don't need to have things explained to you more than once. When presented with a problem, you will often have an instant understanding of where to look for the solution.

You do not take your sweet time when presented with a new task to complete or problem to solve. You don't avoid assignments that require you to learn new skills.

FUN FUN FUN

aw i had fun yesterday and todayyyyyyy. it's rare that i hang out with people without thinking, "dang, i wish i was online instead" and i actually managed that.

plus i have a lunch table secured for next year. *fist pump*

Leave a legacy.

My novels will be my horcruxes
pieces of my soul that make me immortal
(i'll die
but they'll stay
and people can read them
and know me)

Deathly Hallows part 2 spoilers ahead~

Times I cried~
- Snape's death and memories
- Fred's dead body
- Dead bodies of Remus and Tonks
- When Hermione offers to go with Harry to the Forbidden Forest and die
- When Hagrid is tied up and believes that Harry is dead
- Every other second

Times I screamed and scared the rest of the theater~
- THE FUGGING KISS BETWEEN RON AND HERMIONE

&Ron calling Hermione his girlfriend omg.

i never much cared for princes as a child.

or princesses. i really admired girls who were fighters, like the powerpuff girls & totally spies.

and i recall my first crushes being awkward boys.

#musings